Proud ish day...lol

During my marriage I was pretty isolated from groups of people. This was in part to my ex husband doesn't like people and this led to some anxiety problems with myself. When I was younger I was all about being out, being with friends, going to parties, ect.. Anymore it's more like,"Ewww..there's people outside." lol Working really helped and felt good to be around people, to have contact with adults. When I was laid off from Trade Secret, I regressed back into my married role. Back to the full time mom and wife. Back to a handful of friends. Then scouts happened and again, human adult contact and people who understood parental and marital life. And then my ex cheated on me and everything went to hell. Self esteem was crushed, self confidence was crushed, I was basically crushed. My next relationship was horrible and emotionally abusive. Then Colorado happened and I felt amazing. My friend in St. Auggy is really trying to help and today, was an improvement. LOL My friend is a pirate, him and his friend dress as pirates for charity and they are an amazing group. I'm still a bit stand off ish, but I'm warming up. I did get sick earlier, but that's part of my anxiety at times as well. LOL But, I did some interacting and that is a HUGE step. Still have my list in my head and not finished with it and my anxiety is on that list. It's something that is slightly holding me back, but I will conquer this beast. TTFN, Justine