Fears..

We all have a fear of some kind. Snakes, clowns, and heights are on the top of my list and not in that order. LOL I want to conquer all of them, even the clown one. I want to be able to view clowns in a non terrifying, child eating way. lol But I have other fears and these are legit fears and maybe one day, who knows. The fear of hearing I LOVE YOU is terrifying to me and also WILL YOU MARRY ME. The fear of total commitment to someone and being vulnerable is terrifying. The thought of being in a relationship is also terrifying to me. These fear stem from my marriage and also my last relationship. I know my kids would love to see me married again, but I'm ok with never being married. I'm also perfectly happy being single, actually, I'm just happy. I love myself, not many people can say that and I'm content on the way I look. I will never change for anyone again. Love is terrifying in the fact that it opens your heart to the possibility of having it broken again. I've had my heart broken its fair share and I'm not saying I will never be in love again, just the thought terrifies me. I always like to think on the positive side of life and think there is someone out there who also understands and is my soulmate, but we will see. I want to conquer my real fears first and work on the not so rational fears. LOL TTFN, Justine