Hurricane Mathew..

Yep.....Survived..........lol My roommate and I rode it ous like champs. Really all we did was sleep and after thinking about it, I can survive anything. THe last two years of my life have been crazy and I survived all that. I lost a day of pay, but was able to help with cleanup at work as well. We have three people who have lost everything and we as a family are coming together to help them as best we can. A community like St.Augustine is like nothing I have seen or felt before. So many neighbors helping each other and I have never seen that before. Even when Charlie came through in 2004 and devastated Polk County, there wasn't a sense of community and family like St.Augustine. Anyways, yesterday was my first full day of work and it was exhausting, but it was a full day of pay. lol I do love where I live and can't imagine living anywhere else. Thank you for reading my ramblings. TTFN, Justine

Got To Talking..

With my friend and roommate about relationships and getting intimate with someone. I've only been with one other person besides my husband and that was because I was "dating" this person. Basically for 14 years, I only knew my husband at the time and thought I was ready to move on and be with someone else. HUGE mistake..the sex was awful and lets face it, I wasn't ready. Bad sex ruins everything....it just does. If your heart isn't in it, it is going to be awkward. The connection my husband and I use to share was amazing and to have that was the best feeling and it scares me to have that again. Think it would scare anyone who was ever in love once before. Like I said before, I'm not afraid of love, just afraid of losing myself and being the person I use to be. Sad, unhappy, 100lbs heavier, and depressed. I'n not the same person I was 2 years ago, I'm not even the same person I was in Colorado, honestly. Anyways, thanks for reading my ramblings and I think I'm finally no longer stuck in my head.......lol TTFN, Justine